Surgery Does Not Look Hopeful

I've been sitting on pins and needles for over a week. The call finally came at 6:30 p.m. It was not what I wanted to hear. The camera still didn't give an accurate picture of just how embedded the tumor is into the tissue, vessels or even bone. What he does know is that my bladder, parts of my small intestines, and a full hysterectomy would have to ensue. He cannot guarantee me any more quality time than I have now. If he were to do the surgery, my quality of life would diminish and he does not want to put me through all that without any assurance that I would live longer. He actually said it would be a "morbid" thing to do.

On another note, he did recommend a pelvic MRI in hopes to see more clearly into the underbelly, so to speak, of the tumor. It may or may not help in swaying a surgery decision either way. The thing is, I am doing well now. I do not want to be positioned into a life of discomfort and risk. Not without some sort of reassurance that I'll have a few more years. I don't think chemotherapy is even an option now. There are phase I trials, but a different specialist already shot those down.

Basically, surgery looks to be out. By God's good grace I'll live a full and happy life just the way I am, and He will have the option to cure me. My trust is in Him. Where else can it be? When you're not sure about life, go to the one who gave it! So thankful He has accepted me and given me what I have now. Enjoy every moment friends, sometimes they're too short.

Please keep praying if you do. If you don't, just send me some love. :) I'll take all I can get. Thank you for reading and caring. My love to all of you!

I will post of the MRI results when I have those.

Jen

**I shall not die but live, and shall declare the works and recount the illustrious acts of the Lord. The Lord has chastened me sorely, but He has not given me over to death.  ~Psalm 118:17-18 AMEN!